I wanted to come today and talk a bit about another artist here on Tumblr and the issues he and I both face, and possibly the reasoning behind it. If you’re not a fan of drama, or don’t know what I’m talking about, there might be something to take away from this from a moral or even scientific perspective even if you don’t particularly care about the specifics. It’s quite a marvel of social interactions to behold.
Replica is not perfect. But neither am I. In fact, we actually both agree that we’re quite far from perfect and make plenty of mistakes and have issues that we both want to fix. And while we’re far from perfect, I’d be willing to say neither of us are evil or live to try and make other’s lives harder. Maybe at times, but who doesn’t get mad? For those who don’t know, Replica and I got in a fight in winter of 2015 over the now quite obviously silly subject of videogames and opinions about them. At the time, neither of us were in a good place and we took it out on the other creating a rather large shitstorm. We agreed to stay away from each other, but it got way more complicated than that, and way more violent on both sides. But not between us surprisingly, but between our friends. Replica and I recently had a rather long conversation about how these last two years have been and what we’ve seen from our friends. Needless to say we’re both rather tired about the entire argument, which has now blown so far out of proportion we’ve come together to bring forward this issue we both see.
What started out as a simple argument created what I can only describe as factions. On one side was Replica’s friend group and on mine was mine. And while these groups had the absolute best intentions for us as artists, and were great friends, it quickly turned into a battle. Small at first, but as the years went on both sides recruited more and more, either people who agreed with our philosophies and searched for like-minded friends, or new friends who had no idea about the other artist and got spoon fed propoganda until they hated the other ‘team’ like everyone else. These groups essentially created an idol of the other artist which they hated to the point of rabid malice.
These idols were far from accurate, in my group Replica was constructed as an evil troll who hated everyone and everything- and who’s only purpose was to try and make everyone else suffer for his amusement. In Replica’s group I was formed to be a narcissistic egotist who wanted everyone to bend over backwards for me and praise me as some god. It was a war of philosphies, of such large proportions that the groups spent less time arguing with each other and more time circlejerking in our private chats about how angry the other person made us. Needless to say this sort of behavior was endearing at first to have people back us but quickly became terrifying, we had unintentionally created monsters who believed they were doing good. People were saying things and causing drama we had no say in, fighting in our name with good intentions in mind but with the worst consequences. We don’t blame anyone for this, we’ve both lost friends and we both agree we probably should have stopped it before it got this bad.
It needs to stop. These images of the other we’ve formed in our niche circles are not accurate, neither of us are perfect yes and we’ve both made mistakes but neither of us should be crucified for them. If anything, we need to use these mistakes to remind us that we’re human. People will always disagree. But disagreements are no reason to hate someone. It’s entirely possible to be friends with someone you disagree with.
The amount of gossip I’ve seen about us, both about me from his group and about him from my group, is so inane that sometimes I wonder if our groups even see the other as a person anymore.
In the end, Replica and I want it to end, for our sake, for the sake of all of our close friends who’ve stuck by us, and for the sake of the NSFW ‘fandom’ as a whole. This isn’t healthy for anyone, and we’re determined to make it better after all of this, on both sides.
I’ve known Sodiav for about a year now and from what started as a close friendship, turned to nothing but lying, deceiving and manipulation.
I met Sodiav sometime in January of last year. He was a growing artist with tons of potential. I offered to assist him on a few of his pics simply out of generosity. After his picture were a hit, he personally named me his assistant. Things were going smoothly by then. Really nothing bad happened for a long time. We’d skype daily and I’d stay up all night, messing up my sleep schedule just to watch his streams, helping him with his art. For about 5 months, I gave him motivation, confidence, advice and respect. We got very close to one another but our relationship started to take a turn for the worse. At some point, he started to mock me for not being a good assistant. He’d constantly make me feel bad then purposely ignore me afterwards. I felt horrible of course but here he is telling me it’s all a joke. I forgave him of course but it kept happening, again and again. The amount of stress he gave me was unbearable. Eventually he started making threats to unmod me from his picarto unless I told him stuff I really didn’t want to tell him. Personal stuff and what not. He knew exactly how to push my buttons, but I never left him because he was my friend and I didn’t want to lose him. It’s like the abusive relationship scenarios where no matter what happens, they keep coming back.
Sometime in June, I visited Europe. I wanted to make Sodiav really happy and figured I’d buy him some stuff from Europe and mail it to him out of a huge sign of friendship. I spent around $100 worth of merchandise on him. I figured this would show him my loyalty towards him and get him to stop hurting me intentionally but it only made it worse. He scaled up his insults from just making me feel bad, to straight up saying horrible things about my family. He knew exactly what kind of troubles my family was going through. At the time I had nowhere to go, he was driving me crazy, saying all of these horrible things. But when he insulted my father about overdosing, that’s when I drew the line. I told him I was done with his bullshit and our friendship ends here. What does he do in response? He draws a fucking picture with ponies mockingly saying goodbye to me. I sadly don’t have the picture because I blocked him on discord after that, so it got deleted.
So a few days pass until one of my friends says Sodiav wants to talk. I mistakenly decided to listen to what he has to say and he gives me the old “I’m sorry of this” and “I’m sorry for that”. So what do I do? I forgive him. I gave him another chance to make things right and at first he does well. He is actually talking to me like a human being for once and even allows me to commission him. I paid $30 for a simple sketch of Pone. $30 is absurd but he tells me, “I’m Sodiav” like its a great excuse to overprice his works. Not even as his “assistant” I get any discount. No I get nothing but whatever. I paid the ludicrous amount of money and he allowed me to post it on derpibooru. I notice that he also allowed others to commission him too so I’m not the only one. Everything goes without a hitch until he starts getting rude again. It’s nothing too much but regardless still rude. During this time he starts to ignore me again. Whatever. Another few days passes and I go to his tag on derpi. I notice something is missing, my commission. I search for it to see that Sodiav himself removed the tag “artist:sodiav” from the picture. I confront him about this and he tells me he doesn’t want commissions on derpibooru. I would have bought it too if it wasn’t for the fact he left the other commissions from other people keep the “artist:sodiav” tag. I confront him about this and he ignores me. I was so pissed at this point that I wrote all about it in the Pony Town Discord but I never revealed his name. I didn’t want a witch hunt to talk place as some of the members are very well known artists that could have a major impact on Sodiav if word got around him doing this. Sodiav heard about this and basically attacked me. He said he could never trust me from the start even when I spent countless nights helping him with art, spent $100 on merchandise to make him happy, gave him non stop support and motivation when he was feeling down. Knowing that he never trusted me from the get go absolutely hurt and pissed me off. I did so much for him and yet he still couldn’t trust me. I tell him I never revealed his name to which he didn’t believe until I showed him screenshots of the whole rant. He told me I was right and that he felt so horrible for all of those months he treated me like dirt when I wanted to do was help him. He admitted his mistakes and I forgave him but I told him it was the last time I was ever gonna do it. He has already went behind my back, I couldn’t let him keep doing this.
So things return to a normal pace. I’m helping him with pics and such but for some reason he refuses to Skype with me. This was a red flag but I let it slide. He was nice to me again and I felt comfortable with telling him personal things again. It was a horrible mistake I know. When I came out as bisexual he was one of the first people I told. At first, he didn’t care as many of his friends were bi too. But then I started dating another guy and he just berated me for it. He said some absolutely horrible things to me over discord, making me feel very uncomfortable. He sent me gay porn saying that this is the kind of stuff I like now. I was helpless but he kept on pushing me to my limits. His homophobic rants were too much and I began to break down. I’ll link some screenshots of what he said to me at the bottom. After the attack he just went back to ignoring me. I messaged him today but of course he didn’t respond. But then I noticed something. He deleted his messages. He was trying to cover up his tracks. After that, I was completely done with his shit and now I am typing this. Sodiav is not a good person. He is far from it. He is deceptive, a manipulator and liar…
TL;DR: I met Sodiav when he was starting, helped him out a fuck ton and all he did in return was spit in my face.
I’m sorry if this seemed rushed. I really had to get this out there as fast as possible.
Sodiav if you’re reading this, I’m sorry it had to come to this but I can’t stand your abuse anymore and people need to know what you did.
I dont usually reblog non-porn related stuff here but Pone is a great guy and friend, and no one deserves to be treated this way. Sodiav has been a dick to a quite a few people, friends and fellow artists as well, and it needs to stop. And harrassment, manipulation and discrimination is not okay.
And what the fuck is wrong with being gay man.
Jesus, some people let their art get to their heads and think they can do whatever they want. I know who to avoid in the future now. This behaviour is not cool in anyone’s book.
Yo Questionable, what's your favorite sex position? In general and to draw respectively?
I’m not a fan of sex. The nsfw community (for lack of a better word) is oversaturated with it.
It’s like if 90% of sfw art was of skydiving and people just keep drawing nothing but skydiving stuff even though it’s been drawn in every possible form over the past half-century.
To actually answer the questions. I wouldn’t know, because I’ve never tried one in person, and I suppose my favorite to draw would be… this one I drew a while ago except I guess there’s gotta be a second character there so I’ll just scribble ‘em in real fast…
